The WS Mental Health and Empathy Thread

[White Rhyno]

Things are not going great for me mentally lately. I'm really depressed in spite of my meds, I'm not making the best personal decisions, and I'm having problems in my personal life. Things are just really hard, and I'm crying a lot more.

It's all just so hard.

Thinking of you. Depression is hard. I hope you can find a way to get someo relief.

 

[Sha-J Lee]

Things are not going great for me mentally lately. I'm really depressed in spite of my meds, I'm not making the best personal decisions, and I'm having problems in my personal life. Things are just really hard, and I'm crying a lot more.

It's all just so hard.

Hope you get better man. Stay strong

 

[Warhawk8492]

I am going through some tough times too, a bit of a depressive relapse. Its only hitting in episodes but its noticeable. My optimism is being eaten away again. I am not sure if its season affect disorder, doubts about the future or general anxiety causing it but its getting bad again. Just somethings that were a near certainty for me a while ago now seem more doubtful and other things seem so far away that I care about.

 

[Blazehausen]

Kind of just really down and out tonight. Stuff on my mind. Really hate the holidays these last two years. Missing the family I've loss the last few years. Wishing I could talk to them, Wishing we could catch up. Wishing they were just a phone call away. It just doesn't get easier.

 

[R-Troop]

Kind of just really down and out tonight. Stuff on my mind. Really hate the holidays these last two years. Missing the family I've loss the last few years. Wishing I could talk to them, Wishing we could catch up. Wishing they were just a phone call away. It just doesn't get easier.

Man I get it.

Christmas hasn't been the same since my Mom died. I still think about her every day. And I miss her all the time. The pain doesn't go away. It numbs. You learn to live with it.

Just know I love ya dude and if you need anything hit me up.

 

[Cereal Killer]

The last two months of the year are always the hardest for me. My Dad died at the beginning of November on my younger brother's B-Day, almost 30 years ago geez. So, I've had to talk him off the ledge a couple of times...it doesn't exactly get easier, it just gets more familiar. Weird things will trigger a memory out of nowhere. I live 1,200 miles away from my family and friends in the middle of the US now and have been for the past decade. My daughters are here, but its again not easier, just different. They're teenagers and are starting to have their own lives. We're all going through our own things. Stay strong, and do the best you can...it's all you can do really. Wishing everyone another day, week, smile or whatever. Take care

 

[Kairi HoHo]

Just checking in on everyone with Christmas tomorrow. Losing Members of the Family hurts even more towards the Holidays I know that pain. God blessed my Mother and I today to the point where we don't need to stress on where we are going to live. You go from wondering what is going to happen tomorrow to now we won't have to deal with that for a good while helping me save money for an Apartment for us both. I just hope everyone is doing fine tomorrow and if you need someone to talk to I'm here.

 

[R-Troop]

I have never been in a darker place mentally.

I've been angry 24/7. I've hurt people I love. I've lost friendships. I've crossed lines that shouldn't have been crossed.

I started back on meds finally a couple weeks ago. Going to see a therapist next week. It'll take time but I hope I can get to a better place.

I'm sorry for hurting everyone. I truly am.

 

[Chris]

I have never been in a darker place mentally.

I've been angry 24/7. I've hurt people I love. I've lost friendships. I've crossed lines that shouldn't have been crossed.

I started back on meds finally a couple weeks ago. Going to see a therapist next week. It'll take time but I hope I can get to a better place.

I'm sorry for hurting everyone. I truly am.

Stay strong, it's hard but taking the steps you already have is usually the hardest part. I'm finally getting a consultation with a therapist myself soon

 

[Blazehausen]

I have never been in a darker place mentally.

I've been angry 24/7. I've hurt people I love. I've lost friendships. I've crossed lines that shouldn't have been crossed.

I started back on meds finally a couple weeks ago. Going to see a therapist next week. It'll take time but I hope I can get to a better place.

I'm sorry for hurting everyone. I truly am.

Small steps are good steps. Do what you need to do to better yourself.

 

[Big Jean Studd]

I have never been in a darker place mentally.

I've been angry 24/7. I've hurt people I love. I've lost friendships. I've crossed lines that shouldn't have been crossed.

I started back on meds finally a couple weeks ago. Going to see a therapist next week. It'll take time but I hope I can get to a better place.

I'm sorry for hurting everyone. I truly am.

You're taking the first step by owning it

Keep searching and working brother. I love you. We're all redeemable

 

[Sha-J Lee]

I have never been in a darker place mentally.

I've been angry 24/7. I've hurt people I love. I've lost friendships. I've crossed lines that shouldn't have been crossed.

I started back on meds finally a couple weeks ago. Going to see a therapist next week. It'll take time but I hope I can get to a better place.

I'm sorry for hurting everyone. I truly am.

Rooting for ya

 

[Big Jean Studd]

Stay strong, it's hard but taking the steps you already have is usually the hardest part. I'm finally getting a consultation with a therapist myself soon

My benefits kicked in and we apparently have access to 10k in mental.health services

 

[Chris]

My benefits kicked in and we apparently have access to 10k in mental.health services

Work offers us a free consultation and I have to semi make a case that my mental health is affecting my ability to make the company money (easy af lol) and they'll pay for the whole thing if it's just basic therapy.

Downside was everyone doing this charity therapy seemed to be very theological based from one religion or another lol but I found a secular one hopefully

 

[R-Troop]

I thought I was turning a corner and getting better. I'm not.

More friends (so-called friends I guess or former friends) are just blocking me without so much as a warning. Like literally having a good conversation for an hour and then the next day I'm blocked. I'm so paranoid I've checked like 10 times the past 2 hours to see who blocked me now (nobody else since everyone is asleep). These people claimed to be friends, but just don't even say anything and ditch you.

Is it so bad to want to at least know what I did so that I can try and correct whatever I did wrong? People say that they care about you just to up and ditch you with no notice. It's so confusing.

Spoiler: trigger warning

I'm hanging on by a thread here. had thoughts but won't do it, even if most of the people I know would be happy if it happened.

I hate my fucking brain so much.