Cloud said:
Been tested for Bipolar recently and came out ok but am currently on meds for it all. Quite happy to chat on here tbh as it saves me constantly pestering all the ppl close to me for help if that makes sense?
Had it years on and off which is why they tested for Bipolar as have episodes of both mania and then depression but overall been diagnosed with depression.
Well it's good that you have medication and have acknowledged it to be depression. It gets dangerous when it gets to the stage where you don't want help and you just want to end it all. It's great that it's not bipolar as it means it's curable/controllable. Now what you need to look at is lifestyle for example.
I'm probably not the best to ask since I'm a "If you don't like something, don't do it" type of guy. Was kicked out of school for that reason. You live once

. But reason I brought that up was, work. I know you work often and sure money is great but does it have a dampen on your mood? On your days off are you a LOT better or just typically better as everyone is on days off?
Continuing on with lifestyle, are you still comfortable with going out? Depression eventually leads to anxiety which leads to never wanting to leave the house, which can lead to serious mental health issues. If you are comfortable that's great, just don't lose that.
Next is doing things which you enjoy. Personally, I like to swim/work out or jog if I feel shitty. Exercise just takes my mind off crap. iPod goes in, jogging gear on and I'll run until I'm tired. Everyone will have different things, I'm guessing in your case it's music since you're a big music fan (biggest music mark on here

). You seem to enjoy coming on here which is great too, if it takes your mind off things that's great, you just need to work on reducing the amount of "crap" that goes on, balance is key.
By the way, don't feel ashamed or embarrassed asking for those around you for help, they can help you a lot more than we can despite what is posted here, since they know you more and can actually physically do things to help. I advise counselling by the way, it's great if you speak with someone you click with.
Hope this helped. How do I know this stuff? Experience and I studied A-level psychology and was pretty good until I cba'd college.